So, today I stumbled upon a blog that pretty much brought me to my knees. I am completely overwhelmed by this family's story and have such respect and admiration for the strength and grace this woman has. I definitely encourage you all to pay a visit to the site when you have a little time and can read the entire story. The amount of belief and love she is able to give through such tragic circumstances is truly amazing.
I have shared a bit in the past, but I definitely believe that Kruex's life had meaning, but I very much share in the faith that his death was my gift to be given to God. However, I'm not sure I have shared the fact that prior to Kruex's death, I really had never felt any kind of connection to God or to faith of any kind. I was raised Catholic and just never really felt like there was any "fit" between the teachings and what I had always kind of intuitively believed. Shortly after I lost Kruex, I seemed to "find" my faith. I never felt that Kruex was taken from me out of spite or hate, but I did often wonder why I was chosen to carry this burden. I believe it is because I can. Because I do have it in me to honor him in the way he deserves. There is never a day that goes by that I am not praying to be with him again, but I accept that it will happen according to His plan. Plus, I honestly believe he is in the best possible place.
So, read about that amazing woman and please pray for strength for the family. I can only know from my own experience a year ago how she is suffering right now, but I can never dare put myself into her shoes. Her loss was so completely different from my own. I do know that in this time, through all the events of the last 4 months, she has counted on her faith more than she has ever had to in her life, and I figure our prayers could only help.